david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Dec 1, 2009, 6:15 pm
Hello everyone, and again, thanks for all the well wishes. We're surviving, but life has been simultaneously busy and fraught and 'salle d'attente' so to speak. Anyway, it's Wedn...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 28, 2009, 10:20 pm
Help, I need somebody, Help, not just anybody, Help, you know I need someone, help. When I was younger, so much younger than today, I never needed anybody's help in any way. But now these days ar...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 28, 2009, 6:20 pm
Next Thursday she gets the 24 hour heart monitor. Gloucester A&E is grim in the small hours (last big scare - the out-of-hours doc called the ambulance before I'd finished talking). Week after she...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 26, 2009, 8:00 pm
Click on the right hand side of the window to fast forward videos if you don't happen to be in the mood.
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 25, 2009, 4:41 pm
... for your lovely words. Here's a picture that made me laugh today: We're ok, just scared, helpless, and soldiering on as best we can. :-) Take care all Dx
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 24, 2009, 5:26 pm
The main thing that's been happening is that K has been suffering palpitations, chest pains, breathlessness and fainting for the last fortnight. She's fit, she's not the panicky type. So i...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 17, 2009, 12:16 am
Well, I got up and watched from 4.15 - 6.15 and saw a lucky thirteen. Tonight should be good from midnight onwards in the Uk - best in India apparently. The last one was a good long and bright one.
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 14, 2009, 7:21 pm
So, after nearly two years, how has my diagnosis changed me? Because, for sure, being labelled in such a critical way that takes away so many of your rights and privileges damn well changes you. And I...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 13, 2009, 8:49 pm
I wish I had the patience to read to the end of all the comments before speaking, but anger and irritation have got the better of me. I have for good or bad, accurately or inaccurately been diagnosed...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 13, 2009, 6:14 pm
I marched against this sort of thing. Marching wasn't enough. Now it's rubbing our noses in it, and screaming at us that what we did wasn't enough. What should we have done? Bar killing th...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 11, 2009, 5:09 pm
Finished my picture the other day. Title is tongue-in-cheek, or maybe left-buttock according to my knowledge of anatomy. Enjoy... Earlier versions/process. p.s. Alternative titles welcome... I'm...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 8, 2009, 1:33 pm
My brother-in-law imparted the piece of advice encapsulated in the title of this blog on his wedding day, and he was talking about his father and stepmother. Or was it our wedding day? I forget. It wa...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 7, 2009, 10:28 pm
Facebook has borne the brunt of invective. No need to repeat. ---- edit. But you none of you will know what the fuck I'm on about. Therefore: ---- David Alcock I want to kill my neighbours. ...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 6, 2009, 10:49 pm
Ten to five. I have nothing to say. If I start saying, then I'll spout shite. And we wouldn't want that now, would we, admit it, ladies and gents, we certainly wouldn't. I'm good for ...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Nov 5, 2009, 6:08 pm
Although I happen to be in a rather mellow mood today, which is rather lovely. Let me explain. So on the one hand, we have the psychiatrists (or biological types) shoving pills into us to see what w...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 31, 2009, 7:13 pm
Had fun today at the private view at the RWA. My picture was the best out of the 600. I pchawed and hissed with exasperation at half a dozen cliches. I was given the glad-eye by a hundred goat-eyed ca...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 27, 2009, 6:46 pm
Monday* Tuesday. Last night slept 1.00-3.00 & 4.00-6.00. V low all day. Managed to make kids' breakfast and lunch. Couldn't face going out. Looked after little one all afternoon. Baked a cake,...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 26, 2009, 5:04 pm
K takes the credit for spotting this. I got to wow her with my Alt Prt Scr moves. Other news, I finally got around to making a pinhole camera. Still experimenting. Other news. I'm flipping out g...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 23, 2009, 8:40 pm
Click on the pic for an explanation. Oh fuck so I can copy and paste. Ok then. "Scaffold designed by me off the cuff on back of rizla packet. I was horrified to see it become reality. And it was out ...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 23, 2009, 6:55 pm
But not necessarily in a good way. I always have a horrid time in the autumn. I generally have a down at the beginning of autumn. This year nothing has changed. I realised I have a problem with descr...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 20, 2009, 5:23 pm
And don't you hate them? I hate them. This lisping child, wanting to run away out of the room every time I let another piece of information fall that he hadn't read in the file. Still, seemed...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 18, 2009, 3:51 pm
Good summary in the obit of Robert Kendall. http://www.independent.co.uk/news/obituaries/robert-kendell-755421.html More http://blogs.bmj.com/ebmh-talk/2009/01/23/the-end-of-kraepelin%E2%80%99s-di...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 17, 2009, 6:56 pm
I apologise if I posted this before deleting everything. I don't think I did. But I could be wrong. I should change all the names or something, but I'll just have to trust you all not to take ...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 16, 2009, 4:04 pm
I don’t like MH professionals when I’m not in a fit state to talk to them.
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 15, 2009, 6:46 pm
I’ve been a bit spiky of temper recently. Friends seem to bear the brunt. Anyway, can’t think of anything useful to say, so thought I’d post a few draft scans of some pics from a hill th...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 12, 2009, 10:22 pm
It’s not the creative act. It’s the selection. I sit in ‘brown study’ and inhabit scenes, all imaginary. In detail. In dialogue. In every particular of nuance, accent, mannerism. I need a ...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 12, 2009, 2:58 am
Blessed are the Peacemakers, for they shall eat Shit with both their Ears.
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 10, 2009, 7:35 am

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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 9, 2009, 8:01 am
http://www.managementinpractice.com/default.asp?title=SwineflupromptschangestoMentalHealthAct&page=article.display&article.id=18628 I am crazy, or does this sound evil? Via HenryNorthLondon
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 8, 2009, 9:35 pm
I forget what the jargon is. Derealisation? Depersonalisation? Whatever it is, I feel lace-like, and the world feels washed-out. I shake my head to clear it and click back into it, but it isn't wo...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 7, 2009, 9:16 pm
There is but one Moon in these heavens And she is my only Mistress.
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 7, 2009, 6:33 pm
There have been a couple of excellent and interesting posts on the subject from Tangled Weeds and Aethelread. This has been on my mind the last day or so, (separately to the DLA/AA issue), and what ...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 6, 2009, 6:31 pm
Sign the petition. http://petitions.number10.gov.uk/AttendanceA/ Tell your friends. Parties across the board are wanting to scrap Disability Living Allowance. This affects the most vulnerable members...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 4, 2009, 5:07 pm
Just thought I'd give a wee update. Been in a horrid black turd-besmeared hole for a couple of weeks punctuated by manic spikes. Not too bad at the moment. Bit too intense for other peoples' c...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Oct 1, 2009, 4:55 pm
"Finally, hypersensitivity, hypersyntony, extraversion, instability, suggestibility, loss of limits and proprieties, hyperesthesia, hyperreactivity, sensation seeking, disinhibition, intolerance to ob...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Sep 30, 2009, 4:55 pm
"Whenever I find myself growing grim about the mouth; whenever it is a damp, drizzly November in my soul; whenever I find myself involuntarily pausing before coffin warehouses, and bringing up the rea...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Sep 26, 2009, 5:55 pm
Trying to write an 'Artists (fucking) Statement' still. But an honest one. Any opinions welcome. --------------- Statement My pictures are always about reasons for living. Whether they show...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Sep 21, 2009, 7:05 pm
Well it made me giggle which was devoutly to be wished. Keep safe all. Dx
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Sep 20, 2009, 7:41 pm
My Grandfather, introduced and ended my my nuncle. -------------------------------------------------- TWO LETTERS FROM LT. RICHARD ALCOCK RFC FROM THE FRONT TO HIS MOTHER OCTOBER 1918 BACKGROUND M...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Sep 16, 2009, 7:50 pm
kill yourself etc I was thinking very positively all evening. I thought through all of the things it would take to get back to work, doing what I do best. The emotional cruxes started the negativity...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Sep 15, 2009, 11:12 am
I meant, vote for the picture you like best. www.secondlook.org.uk/
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Sep 13, 2009, 1:02 pm
Photos and other arty-farty shite. My website.
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Sep 6, 2009, 6:59 pm
Just living in freshstartville. All previous deleted. Dx
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Aug 29, 2009, 6:21 pm
Attempts at finding answers to some ghastly stock questions: * Why do you create art and what does it mean to you? Because. Nothing. * How does the creation of art make you feel? What emotions do ...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Aug 27, 2009, 7:27 pm
But strangely, have been in no mood to talk about it. I think I'm fed up of talking about it. I'm just getting on with living with it and not getting arrested on account of it. I've been r...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Aug 22, 2009, 6:10 pm
We set forth like a hopeful arrow Headlong towards serenity Return with tail between our legs Back from hols. A lovely peaceful intense soothing extreme time was had by all. Loathe to leave. Hope ...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Aug 10, 2009, 6:45 am
'The Workman's Friend' When things go wrong and will not come right, Though you do the best you can, When life looks black as the hour of night - A PINT OF PLAIN IS YOUR ONLY MAN. When m...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Aug 9, 2009, 3:22 pm
How dangerous is peace and happiness? Only as perilous as that we carry To and from refuge warm and wild and safe. I'm away there again for a while. Thinking of all I spent such gentle times ther...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Jul 30, 2009, 6:34 am
There is a hilarious post over at Alex K's on our quaint customs. Go and read it. But he casts aspersions on the noble sport of cheese rolling. For shame! Make your own minds up (as a Gloucester b...
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david a. posted an article on Abysmal Musings - Jul 27, 2009, 6:50 pm
Hmm. What on earth does that title mean? Have I really forgotten already? Oh yes. Fashion. Why oh why am I fated to be a trend-setter? I bought some speedos a few years back. Next thing I knew, Jame...
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