Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jan 30, 2012, 10:03 am
I got the ok this weekend…I’m having surgery today. Loverboy is even going to hold my hand. Aawwwww… I won’t be on here for a while. But when I do return, I’m sure it will be with tales of fabulousness..ok, so that may be hard with a bad shoulder, but a girl can dream… Much love, Esme
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jan 26, 2012, 11:26 pm
... my surgery, since I won’t need to drive much until then.  Before I left I made sure that we were OK.  I like M as a person.  I am not sure about his thought process sometimes, but I enjoy the convos we have together.  I enjoy spending platonic time with him.  And I like the fact he work...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jan 24, 2012, 2:51 am
My surgery got postponed. AGAIN. The doctors office had no choice, because the workman’s comp insurance company is refusing to talk to them, so it is unclear if they have approved the surgery. Multiple doctors appointments, all saying I need surgery. Time in front of an arbitrator, telling the ins...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jan 20, 2012, 4:40 pm
So far, it hasn’t been a great year… I had court the beginning of the week, and it did not go well.  I’m not going to get into it, because the story is much too involved.  I know I will win this particular argument, but it is going to be a long, exhaustive battle.  And I am just so tired. ...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jan 10, 2012, 1:10 am
Loverboy and I were laying in his bed acting like teenagers. He had his arms around me, Family Guy was on tv, and we we fully dressed. He was whispering silly things in my ear, and I was giggling. (I know, I know…this is all so…NOT ME!) You have great boobs. *giggle* You are one hell of a sexy ...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jan 9, 2012, 6:13 pm
I had court today with the ex, and let’s just say I came out the victor today.  I was granted a no harassment order, I got all of his witnesses thrown out, and I put a major whole in their defense.  I feel like (a sober) Charlie Sheen…except for Adonis blood, I think I may have Aphrodite blood...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jan 4, 2012, 12:46 am
Words may not accurately describe, so let me insert a picture. After all, a picture is worth a thousand words… Whoops... Do you, my wonderful bad girls, have any idea what the above picture is? That would be the underside of my bed. That would mean… I broke my bed!! Ah-hahahahahahaha!! It ca...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jan 1, 2012, 9:43 pm
I know I haven’t posted lately…I assure you all is well on the Loverboy front…I even had my first New Years kiss…sad since I’m in my thirties…and was married…but I digress… I’m typing this on my phone since my laptop is on the fritz, so bear with me as long as you can. Fo realz. Y...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Dec 20, 2011, 8:55 pm
I had a horrible night last night. Just horrible. I had another OP hearing today (it got continued again) and I was stressed about it. I found out my drug-addict-alcoholic-girl-beater brother got his brand-new girlfriend pregnant. And I found out my grandma had a stroke and isn’t expected to make ...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Dec 19, 2011, 2:11 pm
A few things happened with Loverboy the last couple of nights that have me thinking. The other evening he was out shopping for Christmas, and his car wouldn’t start.  Loverboy called me and asked if I could come rescue him.  As I was driving to pick him up, I was shaking a little bit.  Why, yo...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Dec 15, 2011, 9:16 pm
L: What are you in the mood for tonight? E: How about some Italian? L: Mmm…I so love the way Italians taste. E: Oh.  My.  God. L: You are amazing.  You always know what to do and say. E: I have no idea what I am doing.  I’m just going with what feels right. L: You are so sweet. E: God...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Dec 11, 2011, 2:42 pm
I’m sitting here in my cozy house, protected from the outside elements, and I finished a book that made me think.  And made me panic. It’s a book about a paramedic’s experiences.  As medics, we all have stories that we think would make good books.  We see the absolute best in people, and w...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 31, 2011, 7:50 pm
  That cat just cracks me up… So yesterday, in honor of the holiday, I decided to put on my big girl panties and watch a scary movie.  Alone.  At night.  In my house.  So very alone.  I hate scary movies.  With a passion.  I seriously dislike being scared.  I like thrills…like rollerc...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 31, 2011, 3:13 am
Yep, call number three just happened. I may have to call the police tonight… Love, E
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 31, 2011, 3:00 am
So I’m in bed, at 1:06 this am, and my phone lights up.  I don’t recognize the number, so I send it to voice mail.  Guess who it is.  That’s right, Douche Dumpster. He did wind up sending a text to me earlier today, apologizing for his actions.  I’m a bad drunk, my friend died, I unders...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 30, 2011, 12:14 pm
n.-A man-boy who is unaware of how to act in any given situation.  A douche that needs a bigger container to contain all of his huge douchiness.  Example-This guy is the biggest douche dumpster for his actions last night. See where this is going? So I haven’t been on a date in a couple of week...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 28, 2011, 11:38 pm
So who cares if I have put dating completely on hold the last couple of weeks.  It’s all been worth it because… THE CARDINALS WON THE WORLD SERIES!!!  Aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! Wild card win. Comeback from Game 6 deficit. A team that plays well together. Walk-off solo home run by Fre...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 28, 2011, 1:21 am
Girls, it’s an awesome night. Why is that Esme, you ask. Well, I will tell you. The Cardinals just forced a game seven!! Rally Squirrel!!! Aaahhhh!! I aged ten years watching that game… Love, Esme
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 23, 2011, 11:36 pm
      I love sports.  I really do.  I probably should be a dude in that respect.  I’ve had guys stop dating me because I corrected their incorrect sports stats.  Pussies.  I’ve had guys get mad because I want to go watch Da Bears play on Sundays at our local sports bar.  Pussiesx2. Â...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 20, 2011, 2:41 pm
Opportunity knocking?  Not sure…may send me into a panic attack first… A good friend of mine is a publisher.  She is the one that convinced me to start the blog.  She has repeatedly told me that I should consider writing as more than a hobby.  I have repeatedly laughed it off.  I do this t...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 19, 2011, 4:17 pm
OK, so notwithstanding the Year of Esme…I saw M. But wait!!!  It’s not what you think!!  With hold judgment for just a second… I got a random text message from him yesterday afternoon. M: I’m home now. E: OK. M: I need you to bring your truck to me. E: NO.  (I was dead against going...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 16, 2011, 9:12 pm
I’ve decided to kick of The Year Of Esme. From now until next Halloween…it’s all about me. And anyone else I decide to make it about. Decisions I make will be on my terms. Somewhere in there they will benefit me. I’m done giving so much of myself to everyone else. Along the way…I lose who ...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 15, 2011, 2:40 pm
Yesterday I was bored, and I was going through my site stats.  By far, the most interesting part of looking at the site history is the search terms people have used to get to me, whether on purpose or accident. I know that when I get frustrated with something in my life, I will ask a question in m...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 14, 2011, 11:46 pm
Bluntcard.com.
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Oct 14, 2011, 2:39 am
Do you ever just get so overwhelmed you shut down?  Because I do.  I am there with so many things.  Not with the custody battle (that shit is ON).  Not with the shoulder (because that will work itself out.  I’m not even worried about it).  But with some friends.  And definitely with guys. Â...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Sep 29, 2011, 11:46 am
Do not only do I have the shoulder thing to deal with-which is nowhere closer to be resolved, I have so much more on my plate that should never be an issue. Oh so much more. I never heard from the cop I worked with again, which I am ok with because of everything else going on. One day I will take t...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Sep 20, 2011, 10:25 am
This week hasn’t been a great one.  And the awesomeness of it was cumulated yesterday when I found out the my surgery has been postponed.  The surgery that took weeks to schedule.  Why was it postponed?  Because workman’s comp failed miserably at doing their job.  Absolutely fucking miserab...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Sep 15, 2011, 2:17 am
The cop still hasn’t asked me out on a date, and for the most part has tapered off communication.  So I’m done.  The last thing I am is desperate.  As much as I would love to meet up with him (again), I am not going to wait around and/or beg him to go out with me.  I made it perfectly clear,...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Sep 10, 2011, 9:51 pm
Ten years ago, I was not a firefighter/paramedic. Ten years ago, I was holding my one month old, watching the horrific events unfold. Ten years ago, I had no idea that one day I would be a part of this exclusive fraternity. Now that I am a part of it, I wonder if I could have done the same thing....
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Sep 8, 2011, 6:08 pm
I am so damned bored.  Very bored.  Super incredibly bored.  My surgery isn’t scheduled for another two weeks, and most of my hobbies call for two working arms.  I rent a lot of videos.  I DVR a lot of TV.  I read a lot of books.  But I am so bored. So what do I do?  I fire up the old int...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Sep 4, 2011, 1:52 am
I just got the most random e-mail from Perfect.  ’Memba him?  for all those who don’t, click the tag to your right.  But a quick overview: He was the first guy I dated after my divorce. He had two girls I fell in love with. He had a crazy (legitly crazy) ex-wife he decided to give a second c...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Aug 29, 2011, 10:05 pm
Horrible, unimaginable pain. I gave birth to two kids without epidurals.  That’s right, this bitch did it naturally (except for a small dose of narcotics with one).  I didn’t cry. I had a skin graft procedure done, where the donor skin was taken from my thighs.  It hurt so bad I crumbled to ...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Aug 24, 2011, 11:04 pm
So despite the fact that I had my heart ripped out of my chest, friends have been trying to talk me into dating again.  I’m still struggling with that decision.  It just feels wrong to date when my heart belongs to someone else.  Being further removed from the situation, I understand their sent...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Aug 19, 2011, 6:39 pm
I was going to preface this entry with a don’t judge me clause, but fuck it.  I’M judging me.  Sooo…do what you must. So when it came to M, and the now infamous phone call, I did what I needed to do to make myself better.  I cried for a day (or two).  I drank a whole bottle of red wine an...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Aug 16, 2011, 12:20 pm
Physical pain??  Yep. Remember the shoulder injury I wrote about last month?  Well, all was going well.  I had a cortisone injection recently, and it worked pretty well.  I was going to PT, I thought it was going well. Until I heard, and felt, that dry-heave inducing POP. Shit fuck fuck shit ...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Aug 13, 2011, 5:41 pm
I have tried repeatedly to write this post.  I have tried being snarky, I have tried being funny, and I have tried being blase.  It hasn’t worked.  I don’t know what else to do but be honest, and pour my heart out.  This post is more for me then you all, but you are definitely welcome to rea...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Aug 12, 2011, 12:08 am
Yesterday…I saw the love in M’s actions.  For the first time, with my own eyes. Yesterday…M held my hand while I had a painful procedure done. Yesterday…M let me use his strength while I leaned on him and slept. Yesterday…we finalized plans for a romantic night this coming up week. To...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Aug 3, 2011, 11:52 pm
So as I was writing my quick little post last night, Medic was indeed on his way over.  I shut off the computer, and laid on my bed-settling in for the wait.  A minute later, my phone chirped with one word: Here. I can’t even begin to explain the rush I felt when I read those words.  I jumped ...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Aug 2, 2011, 11:08 pm
Hey girls.  I know I have been neglecting you all…much has happened lately and I have let the blog fall to the wayside.  But back to why we are all here…the boys… M and I are occasionally talking and texting.  He has been horribly busy, and I am becoming increasingly frustrated.  I keep a...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Aug 1, 2011, 1:26 am
I know I need to update.  I have a few things going on that are taking up most of my time.  Hang in there…I will soon tell you how I may be fucking things up. Love, Esme
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jul 23, 2011, 11:24 pm
I have learned that the thought of having to say ‘I L-WORD you’ to someone makes me ralph.  No shit.  I can’t do it, so I don’t.  For example, you ask?  Here are some past exchanges that have taken place (these are not all the same person). #1: Esme, I love you. E: Awww…thank you! #...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jul 22, 2011, 3:16 am
Hi all its Jadyn again So I was talking to Esme about an amazing night with the girls over the weekend and she thought I should share it with all of you! A friend of mine is getting married in a few weeks so we headed downtown to wreck it!  We started out hanging out in the hotel room and watchi...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jul 22, 2011, 12:59 am
Mr. Hottie and I were texting/talking some last night, and well into the morning hours.  It’s truly the only time we both have a few spare minutes and can just unwind, be honest, and not speak in ‘code’.  We talked about our maybe situation.  About my kids.  About his job.  About sex.  A...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jul 21, 2011, 10:57 pm
That’s right.  I’m a featured Bad Girl.  Click the pic above to head on over and read all about me.  Show the love. Love, Esme
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jul 15, 2011, 7:33 pm
  Head on over to Bad Girl Bloggers to sign up, read some great blogs, show some love, gain some followers.  Who doesn’t like feeling loved??  Naked is even better when it comes to the ‘luv biz’.  Go enjoy!! Love, Esme
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jul 14, 2011, 9:55 pm
Following Medic and mine’s night of awesomeness, we didn’t talk to much.  I am sure I boggled his mind being the coolest chick ever.  Not only that, but I got injured at work, my mind has been pre-occupied with other men, he has been going through more training, etc.  Just a bad couple of wee...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jul 13, 2011, 11:55 am
I saw this picture, I don’t remember where, and it really resonated with me.  Kudos to this woman for spreading, as I see it, the truth.  I hope that this invites discussion. The truth as I see it   Love, Esme
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jul 11, 2011, 4:06 pm
I know some of you are probably wondering what I have decided to do about the whole Mr. Hottie debacle. I do not know. That is the simplest answer without writing four pages worth of rambling thoughts.  He is giving me all of the time I need to figure this out.  But, since I have no commitment, ...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jul 10, 2011, 12:38 am
I had a movie date with Fighter the other night.  I kept the date, even though I was in pain and I had a lot on my mind.  Instead of heading out for a movie, however, I invited him over. Halfway through the movie he went in for the kill.  And I was excited.  Until it felt like he was trying to ...
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Esme Williams posted an article on Love, Esme - Jul 6, 2011, 3:24 pm
Last night at work, I had to move kegs.  And for whatever reason, my work stacks their kegs two-high.  I went to take one down…and felt my shoulder give.  Sonofabitch.  I went to Urgent Care, and am now in a sling with an appointment with an orthopod.  Yay me. The pain in my shoulder is lege...
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