Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Nov 11, 2009, 1:27 pm
So it happens like this: I’m listening to Sean Keaveney’s breakfast show on 6 music, like I do every weekday morning, and he plays Eet by Regina Spektor, which I like a lot. I decided to listen to...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Nov 9, 2009, 2:40 pm
Do you answer your phone when there’s a with-held number? Mine rang this afternoon and I went through that moment of thinking “who could you be?” Will you bring me joy or sadness or try to sell ...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Nov 8, 2009, 4:30 pm

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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Nov 8, 2009, 6:44 am
Or, why watching Hollyoaks is bad for your health. Hollyoaks is my televisual guilty pleasure. Watching it on Friday upset me though, just the tiny nuance (as much as Hollyoaks *has* nuances) of touc...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Nov 4, 2009, 11:55 pm
(discusses self harm - you have been warned) In the muddled period before I went into hospital, I was self harming more that I ever had done in the preceding ten years, and more severely. It had beco...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Nov 4, 2009, 8:55 am
(picture by Jeremy Asher Lynch) I have sent a letter of complaint to my local NHS Trust. As I mentioned last week, my consultant point blank told me that there are no psychological services availabl...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Nov 4, 2009, 8:46 am
I have sent a letter of complaint to my local NHS Trust. As I mentioned last week, my consultant point blank told me that there are no psychological services available in my area, (other than the sho...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Nov 3, 2009, 9:41 am
“The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four Americans is suffering from mental illness. Think of three of your best friends. If they’re ok, then it’s you”. Rita Mae Brown. Amusin...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Nov 2, 2009, 7:10 am
Go to Ikea on a Sunday, when you’ve been stuck in traffic for five hours, when you’re still exhausted after having flu and you’ve spent all weekend with your extended family. Try not to lose the...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Oct 31, 2009, 11:42 am
One other thing that my consultant said to me; “have you told anyone how you’re feeling?” Well, no, not really. I’ve mentioned it here, and to an online friend, but otherwise have been mainta...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Oct 30, 2009, 11:44 am
This weekend I am going away for a family function, which is causing me to feel quite anxious. Whilst I am close to my parents and brother, our extended family do not see each other frequently. The re...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Oct 29, 2009, 3:33 pm
post-consultant blues, (see previous post).fat and bloated and run down. Lady at work told me she'd noticed how awful I'd looked today. Wail. too tired to write proper sentences.
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Oct 29, 2009, 10:21 am
Woohoo! Same consultant twice in a row! This is good news because I actually really like this chap, (disregarding the fact that he’s youngish and a little bit handsome). He listens, he seems to have...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Oct 29, 2009, 1:15 am
...please could we have a day where we don't talk about how much exercise we did or didn't do the previous day, where we don't greet each other by asking how "weigh-in" went and where we d...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Oct 25, 2009, 1:23 pm
and I said to myself, "I'll know when I'm better because I'll stop second-guessing everything that I feel"
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Oct 24, 2009, 7:39 am
Thank you for all the birthday wishes. My birthday/holiday was excellent, but I've been ill with flu since I arrived back, so haven't really had the capability to think it all through. Today i...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Oct 9, 2009, 4:49 am
It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to. But hopefully not. It is my birthday on the 16th. I will be 29 and I am uncomfortable with that. My strategy is to return to Scotland for the first time s...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 30, 2009, 2:46 pm
... high figure on Monday left me to see it desperate to drop - and it has, that is how I justify my actions.La made the italicised commend ... ;net ... so if it's acceptable for him, can it be...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 30, 2009, 7:21 am
I'm part way through writing a follow-on entry to my last post, but in the meantime, this tickled me:
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 28, 2009, 1:49 pm
"Just keep hanging in there, and don't worry too much about the weight, don't stress yourself about it - though I know how upsetting weight issues can be. Maybe stop reading the scales - it ca...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 28, 2009, 12:10 am
It is 6.10am. I have been awake since 4.30am and laid there praying that it would stay 4.30am so that I didn't have to get out of bed. I am too fat to get out of bed. I shouldn't be allowed ou...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 27, 2009, 7:03 am
quiet confused, but blank of head. lonely fat and tired. The usual really. passed my driving theory test though. Not sure what to do with my time now that I don't have to learn road signs :) I d...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 24, 2009, 9:04 am
Do you ever have the feeling that everyone around you is mental and you just want to get away from it all? That makes me sound like a cow, I know, and I should be pleased that poor mental health is so...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 22, 2009, 4:52 am
http://thevanityward.wordpress.com/2009/09/20/gratuitous-i-love-autumn-post/
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 19, 2009, 7:35 am
If someone asked me that question, my first reaction would be to chuckle and quickly the change the subject. Inside I'd be answering, "well, that's a stupid question, do you think I would be h...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 14, 2009, 9:24 am
You lay out your clothes in a burst of preparedness the night before, but when you put them on in the morning, they look all wrong. This was a tried and tested combination of garments, so logically, t...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 8, 2009, 1:40 pm
** warning ... this post talks about self harm and scars ** I've been thinking about self harm a lot over the past couple of weeks, which I guess is natural given that my mood has dropped somewh...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 7, 2009, 6:20 am
I am shockingly poor at being assertive. I am much more likely to stew over the things that others have done to upset/annoy me until too long a time has elapsed for it to be appropriate to bring it up...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 4, 2009, 3:27 am
I thought that I’d name this post after one of my current favourite songs, (by Florence and the Machine). The title is appropriate though, as this week I’ve been unable to make much sense of anyth...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Sep 1, 2009, 5:18 am
I awoke this morning feeling very cross. I had a blissful night of sleep – one of those where you wake up a couple of times and revel in the fact that you don’t have to get up yet and huddle back ...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Aug 28, 2009, 6:48 am
http://www.thevanityward.wordpress.com/
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Aug 27, 2009, 9:33 am
Firstly, thank you for the comments left on my last post – I am touched by the consideration evident in them. To answer the questions about therapy/NHS; I am under the local CMHT and all they are ab...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Aug 26, 2009, 5:28 am
The forecast says that if you cry before nine o’clock, it’s probably not going to be the easiest morning. I’m feeling really low at the moment. I don’t know if it’s hormones or the fact I�...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Aug 21, 2009, 4:46 am
It’s a unnerving start to a medical appointment when you arrive to be told that the Dr you had been seeing has “resigned in a hurry” and you have to see someone else. This is the fifth time my s...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Aug 20, 2009, 5:47 am
I’m grumbly today anyway. I’ve had a sore neck since Monday, which I put down to tension, but I awoke at 3.20 this morning largely unable to move. The only way I could get back to sleep was to lie...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Aug 19, 2009, 4:59 am
Honesty. An elusive skill, no? Eleven weeks since I last saw him, I will be meeting with my consultant. It’s not wholly his fault that it’s been so long; I bounded into the last appointment decla...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Aug 17, 2009, 7:22 am
Who is Clare? Clare is getting married to Mark today; they have been together about 6/7 years. Clare is a history teacher and Clare owns a house. Clare was one of my friends from school. I had a reas...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Aug 16, 2009, 4:33 am
www.toothpastefordinner.com Struggling massively. This picture probably says it better than I could.
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Aug 14, 2009, 12:01 pm
Hard, hard morning. Went to bed last night feeling absolutely horrified with myself and woke up feeling much the same. Debated the merits of staying under my duvet and actually not bothering with the ...
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Jane G. posted an article on My Thirteenth Sad Day - Aug 10, 2009, 1:03 pm

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