Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Nov 20, 2009, 6:40 pm
I swear there are days that I have to wonder about my Ex.  Last night while studying for a final on my couch, my Ex comes up to me since he is still living in the house.  Well I kind of know that he...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Nov 19, 2009, 9:17 pm
yes the title should give away everything… the fucker is moving out!!  Well as of January 1st that is.  In some ways I am a little up set at this.  But over all I feel really happy!! Well I ...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Nov 16, 2009, 9:24 pm
The more I think about my New Friend the more interested I am getting.  I don’t know, there is just something about him.  I am still trying to think about a name to call him and nothing so far...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Nov 15, 2009, 1:53 pm
I really don’t know how this happened, but I am thinking that there is some one new in my life.  I was very surprised this weekend.  I was not expecting this at all.  I am still trying to de...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Nov 11, 2009, 4:15 pm
Well in summary of last night.  My Ex promised something last night before I went to bed and he still has yet to do it and he is gone to who knows when tonight.  He told me to leave him something fo...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Nov 10, 2009, 9:00 pm
I am finding it harder and hard to just let thing go as of late.  I find my self loosing my temper almost every day.  Which I am usually very calm and patient type of person.  I am finding that it ...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Nov 8, 2009, 12:19 am
I don’t know what it is about this song, but right now I seem find my self listen to this song a few times a day.  I find that this song is what I feel at this moment.  I know what I want in l...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Oct 31, 2009, 11:37 pm
I am so tired of dealing with my Ex… what an ass he can be.  There are days when he is just great and helps out with the boys… but then there are others when I have to ask my self, “...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Oct 29, 2009, 10:49 pm
I have been thinking about this for the lat few days.  Is being happy following your heart or your head?? I find my self thinking what I should do.  There are days when I feel like maybe it is best...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Oct 22, 2009, 10:47 pm
I would like to apologise to everyone who may read my blog.  It is not that I have forgotten about it, it is just finding the time to write.  So much has been going on in my life right now.  But ri...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Oct 4, 2009, 5:06 pm
Well I really thought that after I deleted my Ex’s friend of my facebook page.  He would get the hint that maybe I did not want his opinion on what he thinks my Ex and I should do and that he a...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Sep 28, 2009, 11:07 am
Well I would like to apologies to every one who may have been waiting to hear how my birthday went.  I have  been really busy this past week.  Well in many ways it was not the party that I wanted&#...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Sep 28, 2009, 11:05 am
Oh yes I did… I threw in the towel and just gave in to my feeling.  You maybe be asking about what as you start to read this post.  I gave into the feeling I have for my Friend and let him bac...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Sep 26, 2009, 4:57 am
It is 3:30 in the morning and all I can think to my self is how much I do not want to turn 29…. I can not even sleep.  I don’t feel it and I don’t look it… so why should I tur...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Sep 24, 2009, 10:13 am
Okay, I guess in many ways I have been feeling a little crazy as of late.  My actions are the sure result of that I have been all over the board as of late.  The more out of wake I get hormonally th...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Sep 23, 2009, 10:54 am
To begin with I am not having a good week at all right now.  I feel like I am in a water globe right now and I am being tipped up side down and shook.  It started with Sunday and not being able to g...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Sep 20, 2009, 10:36 am
I guess in some ways I think that I need to make things clear here.  When it comes to blogging about my Friend I make to make sure that all of you that read this blog should know that when I blog abo...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Sep 19, 2009, 9:01 pm
When I opened up this fortune cookie on my Horoscope page this morning… I kind of laughed and went wow at the same time.  I would have to say that I am a very generous person and also a perfect...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Sep 16, 2009, 9:19 pm
I really don’t get him… I really don’t.  Yet there he is again tonight.  My Friend has poked me once again on Facebook.  And I am having to wonder why.  Shortly after I wrote the...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on Two Boys In A Box - Sep 16, 2009, 4:01 pm
Well I am a little sad yet very proud of my oldest… Dominic is getting to be such a big boy.  Today was his first day of pre kindergarten!!  I thought that today was not going to be that big o...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Sep 10, 2009, 5:34 pm
This is what my fortune cookie told me today.  And I guess in a lot of ways this is true.  The more one smiles the more one usually feels better not only about them selves but also about the world a...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Sep 10, 2009, 11:53 am
One of the ladies I know posted something on Facebook yesterday that has got me thinking.  Her posting said “If you can’t get someone out of your head, Maybe they’re supposed to be ...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Sep 3, 2009, 8:55 am
I can not believe that I almost forgot about today… Today13 years ago my life changed so much.  One of the most important person in my life died… My Grandmother.  She was in a lot...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on Two Boys In A Box - Sep 2, 2009, 11:02 pm
I can not believe that I almost forgot about tomorrow… Tomorrow 13 years ago my life changed so much.  One of the most important person in my life died… My Grandmother.  She was in a lo...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Aug 31, 2009, 5:29 pm
I could not believe this when I saw it… I got a message from one of my Ex’s friends just about an hour ago.  I am almost pissed off to see that this guy is monitoring how long I am on lin...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Aug 25, 2009, 9:25 am
This is something I have never thought about until watch LA Ink tonight.  The Lady getting the tattoo done tonight really made a point… what are we waiting for??  None of use know how long we ...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Aug 19, 2009, 9:56 am
I don’t know how much more I can do.  I am kind of really at the end of my rope.  And I am so tired of dealing with this crap that he puts me though.  As my sister has told me…  “...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Aug 18, 2009, 9:49 am
I knew it yesterday, I knew when he was comment me on everything that something was up.  He was being extra nice before he laid a guilt trip on me.  First he asked me to see if my mom would watch th...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Aug 17, 2009, 11:23 am
I did it… my old friend is no longer in my life.  He should be getting the letter I sent either today or tomorrow.  But last night I removed him from my FB page.  I swear my heart is breaking...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Aug 13, 2009, 3:16 pm
Well I saw my counsellor again today.  It was nice to be able to talk to her again.  I have not seen her in a while.  We talked about the last few weeks.  She was happy to hear that I have found d...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Aug 13, 2009, 2:54 pm
Well I have been going back and forth about posting this and today I have decided what the hey.  I am not completely proud of what I did this past weekend.  I guess to start off I think the reason w...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on Two Boys In A Box - Aug 7, 2009, 10:55 am
I can not believe it… Maxim is only 16 months old and yet he is now uttering the word NO.  For the last few weeks all he has been doing is shaking his head from side to side to tell me NO.  Bu...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Aug 4, 2009, 11:51 am
I just don’t know what to do any more.  I need to have the energy to get things done.  But I just can not seem to find it.  I need to get these papers off to the day care, which at the moment...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Jul 31, 2009, 11:01 pm
Well I am sitting here on a Friday night.  I have just had one of those days… where I am just glad that I will be going to bed soon.  I have just finally gotten the boys to bed.  If you are w...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on Two Boys In A Box - Jul 30, 2009, 10:24 am
I know that it has been a while since I even made a post about the boys.  I am kind of feeling bad about it.  Since this blog was originally to talk about them.  But now has veered to me.  The bo...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Jul 30, 2009, 10:07 am
I have been going back and forth on posting this.  I was pretty upset the other day.  I a lot of ways I am glad a waited a few days, since it has given me a few days to think about what he accused m...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on In My Own Words - Jul 27, 2009, 11:00 am
I stand in front of a wall right now in my life.  I don’t know what is behind this wall.  I know what is behind me and I am at this point in my life I am so tired of dealing with it.  I am ti...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on Two Boys In A Box - Jul 24, 2009, 12:51 pm
Well I had my fifth appointment this morning.  I would have to say that over the last week I have not been really feeling my self.  But after talking to my counsellor today… thing are very cle...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on Two Boys In A Box - Jul 15, 2009, 10:59 am
I really thought by the time Maxim was a year old, he would be sleeping fine though out the night and in his own bed.  But now that Maxim is pretty much almost 16 months old.  There he is still in b...
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Ava J. D. posted an article on Two Boys In A Box - Jul 13, 2009, 9:15 pm
While walking last night and actually over the last week or two I have been passing a house that actually has fake flowers planted in their front yard.  This really puzzled me… why fake flowers...
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