Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Dec 11, 2009, 5:33 pm
I’m not going to go into the details, but I have committed to go to a treatment center. I’m on a waiting list, I’ll make another post when I know I’m leaving.
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Oct 5, 2009, 9:08 pm
So the last week or so have been interesting food-wise. I’ve only purged once in the last 8 days, but I’ve also only averaged 478 calories per day, and that only because I had 1,660 on Fri...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Oct 2, 2009, 1:26 am
Mhmm! I have been, in the last few days, probably the happiest I’ve been in a long time. ^_^ It’s really nice. Really….really….nice.
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 24, 2009, 5:18 pm
I just read a blog post about taking things for granted. It it, she said: Funny how much we take for granted. Take me, for example. I take for granted that when I get up in the morning, the light w...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 22, 2009, 3:13 am
I’ve been having more unpleasant dreams than usual. More meaning in greater numbers. Sunday, I wasn’t feeling well so I spent most of the day in bed…dreaming. It was a long day fill...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 18, 2009, 2:59 pm
Quite a while back, I took a personality test. I stuck it in a draft intending to look at it later, but I forgot. Today, I was cleaning out my drafts when I came across it. I don’t agree with ev...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 17, 2009, 12:03 am
I find the thought of sex for pleasure disgusting. I have for as long as I can remember. I’ve never found anyone who feels the same, which is good, since sex is normal and healthy. But today I w...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 12, 2009, 1:34 pm
So, in an effort to be more positive, I’ve decided to start listing happy things each day. So today, here’s my happy things: My brother fixed my computer so I can play one of my favorite...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 10, 2009, 1:01 am
Hey all. It’s been a while since you’ve heard from me. But Livvy is too out of it and emotionally disconnected to write about herself at the moment. Currently, she’s lying in her ten...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 9, 2009, 9:24 pm
It’s been a very long, hard day.
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 8, 2009, 11:39 pm
I leave in my wake a trail of failed treatment attempts. How do I feel about treatment? I really don’t know. I may have the opportunity in the upcoming months to do a special kind of residential...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 8, 2009, 11:15 pm
I have a slight case of the post-purge jitters. I just finished purging my only real meal of the day. Granted, not being an actual meal does diminish the loathing for that muffin I ate, with intention...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 7, 2009, 2:22 am
I feel tired, hollow, dejected. I lie here, listening to music I’m not really interested in and all I can think about is my mistakes. It also occurs to me that I’ve been making a habit o...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 3, 2009, 2:12 am
I saw this on another blog about 20 minutes ago. This is a link! It’s part of a book about a male food critic with bulimia. I read through, it took a while to get me interested. After about 2/...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 2, 2009, 11:32 pm
The last 2 nights, I’ve cried myself to sleep because I feel so abandoned. I’ve also been waking up from nightmares. I don’t know what they’re about, I just know I wake up cryi...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Sep 2, 2009, 12:13 am
Today, I met up with my brothers and one took the three of us to see District 9 and out for pizza and this place called Tony’s that has the biggest pizza I’ve ever seen. After the movie, I...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Aug 31, 2009, 7:18 pm
Last night was rough. I got very little sleep. I let my camping spot as 6:27am and walked over to the library. I arrived at 7:30. It opens at 9:30, so I had a 2 hour wait. I was freezing cold from my ...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Aug 31, 2009, 4:20 am
She never slows down. She doesn’t know why but she knows that when she’s all alone, feels like its all coming down She won’t turn around The shadows are long and she fears if she ...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Aug 29, 2009, 11:34 pm
I’m not even angry. I’m being so sincere right now. Even though you broke my heart. And killed me. And tore me to pieces. And threw every piece into a fire. My family has 7 children....
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Aug 29, 2009, 5:28 am
Today I had 4 liters of Mountain Dew and stayed up with my brothers playing video games and watching movies. We all had a case of severe fits and giggles by the time we hunkered down for the night wit...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Aug 28, 2009, 12:12 am
There is a vein in my wrist that sticks out in one spot and taunts me so. I want to slice it open. Not to die. Just to see the blood flow. But I’m too cowardly to try. I found my box of art sup...
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Livvy N. posted an article on Fractured Ideals - Aug 27, 2009, 1:46 am
**Warning** Self-harm trigger warning. Where are you and I’m so sorry I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight I need somebody and always This sick strange darkness Comes creeping on so haunt...
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