Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Nov 23, 2009, 3:13 am
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Nov 21, 2009, 7:55 am
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Nov 20, 2009, 1:30 pm
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Nov 19, 2009, 1:37 pm
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Nov 17, 2009, 5:03 am
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Nov 13, 2009, 12:27 pm
I’ve gone private for a number of personal reasons. The first is that I cannot deal with the responsibility of posting to the public given my current circumstances. I’m terrified that my w...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Nov 10, 2009, 2:43 pm
He doesn’t have a stripey jumper or a balaclava. He doesn’t appear in a court of law, he’s not arrestable, nor tagable, nor accountable for his actions. He doesn’t have a bag, ...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Nov 8, 2009, 4:37 pm
Most people find a blank screen, or an empty page intimidating. Me, I’m the opposite. I find it overwhelming yes, but I also find it oddly calming. The blankness, if I stare long enough into the...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Nov 7, 2009, 7:59 am
My first word, according to my Mum, was “No”, and my second word was “Mine”. For someone who made such a promising start at asserting themselves, it seems to have frittered out...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Nov 6, 2009, 10:39 am
Where is this going? That’s the question in my head at the moment. It’s coming up as the bones are peeping out. I’m not weighing myself, but I am aware of being lighter. Aware of the slight inwa...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 31, 2009, 7:56 am
I promised myself after This , that I wouldn’t put myself in that situation again, ever. It was a silent vow, but one which repeated through my head again and again every day I was in treatment....
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 30, 2009, 3:46 am
Something a little odd has been happening to me recently that seemed noteworthy in light of the lack of positive posting here. It’s something strange that I think it’s time to share. Someo...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 28, 2009, 1:19 pm
Now look you lot, yes, You, don’t gaze blankly at the computer screen pretending you don’t know what I’m on about. I’m watching you. I’m not impressed whatsoever with all...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 27, 2009, 9:22 am
I started a new post, about 2 hours ago, and so far this is the first thing I’ve been able to type. Whilst believing quite strongly that if I’ve not got anything coherent to say, then ther...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 25, 2009, 6:57 pm
A few years after my Aunt Megan died, when my folks and I were back on speaking terms, I went to visit them. My Dad and I had a few glasses of red wine one evening, and we went to sit outside on the p...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 24, 2009, 6:10 pm
At work I file a lot of investigations. It’s what usually we say if we are closing a case because there are no further lines of enquiry to pursue. If you’ve been a victim of crime you may ...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 24, 2009, 5:12 am
I’m supremely over-excited today. Revved up and restless. I’m not really sleeping at the moment, because I’m not really eating at the moment. Lying awake all night twitching. What is it? Why can...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 23, 2009, 4:48 am
So I still want to starve. Amusing when that comes from someone who isn’t underweight in the slightest, but it still stands. But what has struck me in the past 12 hours is that I want to starve,...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 19, 2009, 5:54 pm
Restricting is like this giant void inside. Not a void, more of a vacuum. An underwater cavern. A place where noise is absorbed and stifled. It’s a huge empty moonscape, or the bottom layer of t...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 18, 2009, 9:00 am
With every word I am a fraud. The lies which multiply and fill the air. Clouds of deceit darkening the sky. Polluting the space between us, the trust is tainted. You do not know. With every compliment...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 10, 2009, 2:39 am
Leave me. I am quietly resting here. Waiting with a lungful of words. Bathing in ivory dreams. Seeking out space, sneaking out into space, into darkness, into the corner, into the car park. Under the ...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Oct 6, 2009, 5:51 am
Hello there. Not quite sure how to start this post really, and the temptation to copy and paste previous entries is overwhelming. You see, I’m struggling again, hence the lack of eating disorder...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Sep 29, 2009, 12:34 pm
Monday night was the first session out of 21 at college. I am studying “An introduction to counselling skills” as an evening class on a Monday evening. It went well, I think, at least I di...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Sep 25, 2009, 3:15 am
I’m completely knackered! Things have been Oh-my-Gawd-I-Haven’t-Got-Time-to-go-to-the-toilet busy at work this past week. Oh for some money in the overtime budget, because quite frankly th...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Sep 17, 2009, 12:40 pm
So I guess the time has come to explain further about the giant cat references, though I suspect I’m about to blow my anonymity somewhat, but still, let’s go there, shall we? I recently st...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Sep 15, 2009, 1:45 pm
My Mother’s annual September visit is over, I only spent one day with her, which seems about the right amount of time. Any more than that and I’m ready to flay my own skin off with a potat...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Sep 9, 2009, 2:44 pm
Well at about 1am this morning I found a college course that I want to take. The idea has been bubbling away for a while now. A friend of mine embarked on a similar journey not so long ago, though she...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Sep 8, 2009, 3:23 pm
Thus far I have been pretty successful at avoiding this post. I don’t think it portrays me in a very favourable light, but I guess if you start lying on your own blog there’s little point in keepi...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Sep 6, 2009, 10:40 am
I was up at 4am on moving day. It took less than half an hour to finish moving my boxes downstairs. The rest of the time I spent sitting in the middle of my echoing room, feeling like the walls of my ...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Sep 4, 2009, 12:19 pm
You may have noticed that I don’t post specifically about my job on this blog. There are a variety of reasons for that. For those of you who don’t know me in real life, or haven’t worked it out ...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Sep 1, 2009, 2:31 am
When I was 17 I went to my Dad’s graduation. I remember the day starting badly, I felt fat, I felt unkempt, I was dreading the obligatory family photograph hell. Dreading being forced to pull fa...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Aug 30, 2009, 1:12 pm
Since I left Thursdays appointment I’ve felt like I’m falling. Felt unreal and uneasy and unable to talk myself down from the oddness. I just don’t feel right, feel real. I feel comp...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Aug 28, 2009, 5:30 am
I started shaking at about 2 o’clock in the afternoon, noticed my heart was racing, my hands were damp. Tiny beads of cool water appearing on my forehead. Breathing, shallow and far too fast. I ...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Aug 25, 2009, 3:55 am
Thursday is looming on the Horizon like a hangman’s noose. The feelings switch in my head is flickering in most disconcerting fashion from “Nothing, Nil Point” to “OverloadR...
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Lola Snow posted an article on Marine Snow - Aug 24, 2009, 9:18 am

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