Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Oct 7, 2011, 9:26 am
Sometimes your life changes so drastically that all you can do is sit back and take time to adjust to it.  Some people do it surrounded by friends, leaning on others for support, but I'm the type who prefers to do it alone.  Go inside myself and sit with it, analyze it, until it starts to feel oka...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - May 3, 2011, 5:52 pm
"Sometimes she has imagined what it would be like to fly, to live in the river, to run like a horse. She has dreamed of that freedom, that power, and fears the wildness in herself that wants to live as beasts live, moved purely by need and desire. She has felt torn between the heat of her limbs ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Apr 28, 2011, 4:54 pm
As people slowly find out that I’ve resigned from the job I’ve been at for 5 years in the career I’ve been in for 10 years, the first question out of their mouth is always the same.  “What are you going to do?”  I’m sure they expect me to say “oh, I’ve got a job at another firm” ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Apr 25, 2011, 12:54 pm
I think I have an addiction.  To love.  Or at least the prospect of it.  I don't seek it out, I'm not unhappy alone.  I'm quite a solitary creature and honestly happy to go to bed with my arm around my Golden Retriever and my cat curled between my feet.  But when the prospect of that next amazi...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Apr 8, 2011, 7:15 pm
I must admit that even though things are getting better and I'm figuring it all out, there are still moments of self-doubt and fear.  Of sadness and worry.  I guess that will always be so?  I still don't have relationships and dating figured out.  Obviously.  But right now every date, every pot...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Apr 7, 2011, 11:56 am
If you keep at it long enough, eventually there’s a shift.  Eventually you won’t be faking it anymore.  Eventually you’ll catch yourself smiling again.  Laughing even.  Eventually you’ll feel that little flutter in your belly when you notice the way your date’s eyes crinkle at the side...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Apr 2, 2011, 2:25 pm
Isn't it funny how being in love can completely distort your perception?  When you love somebody they couldn't be more handsome, more shiny, more everything.  Ever since we had the talk about our relationship, our friendship, and I finally let go of the hope that we'd be something more some day, I...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Mar 30, 2011, 12:09 pm
I yearn for simplicity in my life, yet I do such good work of creating stress and chaos I'm not sure what I'd do with myself in its absence.  I'd been having a hard time of things lately.  Really a very hard time.  A wake up at 3 a.m. every morning unable to go back to sleep as every terrible, tr...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Mar 11, 2011, 4:47 pm
The depression that’s had me in its grip is starting to loosen and I’m finally feeling a sense of buoyancy and lightness.  Last night I had dinner with two of my best friends, just us girls.  Something I haven’t done in so long it’s ridiculous.  Now that everyone’s married, engaged, sig...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Mar 8, 2011, 3:25 pm
I’ve never really been much of a music person.  I mean, I enjoy music (really, who doesn’t) but sort of as an afterthought.  Oh yes, that’s nice.  When given the choice between music and silence I’ll often choose silence, where I can sit nestled in my own head and analyze myself into depr...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Mar 1, 2011, 5:26 pm
  I'm thinking I need a break for awhile.  A break from self-doubt, self-pity, fear, sadness, regret.  I'm done with it all for a bit.  I miss just being.  I miss acceptance.  I miss happiness.  I truly believe there's a need for reflection and looking back on the past to learn from it.  I b...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Feb 18, 2011, 12:23 pm
I realize I sound ridiculously emo and whiney in my writing, and frankly that’s how I feel 50% of the time.  But just as often I have days, even weeks, where I’m just happy.  And filled with gratitude.  Typically not for any reason more than the sun is out and my dog loves me.  And this week...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Feb 14, 2011, 2:55 pm
I’ve always been a fan of Valentine’s Day.  Significant other or no, it’s always been a day worth celebrating.  Regardless of its origins or how people tell you it should be celebrated, I see no harm in a day who’s pure purpose is to celebrate Love.  With a capital L.  Even when I’m si...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Feb 2, 2011, 12:29 pm
This seems to be making it's way around the interwebs but I wanted to post it here not only because I think it's an important message for every single person to hear, but also so that I have the link to go back to whenever I need a reminder.  It's a bit long, 20 minutes, but so worth it.  Within t...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Feb 1, 2011, 12:50 pm
One of my resolutions for this year was to make or re-purpose all of my clothing, meaning NO SHOPPING for clothing all year long.  While I knew this would be a painful undertaking, I figured it would accomplish three goals:  1. help me save money - very important when you decide to up and quit you...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Jan 27, 2011, 12:32 pm
I have admittedly been feeling sorry for myself lately.  Really for a very long time now.  And it's not my usual nature...really it's not...it's just that when you go through a period of cleaning out all the muck, healing all the old wounds, and generally all around trying to figure your shit out,...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Jan 25, 2011, 6:35 pm
Ever notice how technology has provided all new ways to remind you of the absence of someone from your life after a breakup?  The unfriending on Facebook, the disappearing of their name in Yahoo messenger, the deleting of their emails from your inbox.  More tangible things to remind you that you�...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Jan 21, 2011, 3:51 pm
I'm struggling to find any motivation to work, and really wishing I'd just ballsed up and given the one month I'm required to give by contract instead of agreeing to stay for three more months.  It didn't seem like too much of a sacrifice at the time.  It's the part of the year that's always gone ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Jan 18, 2011, 5:17 pm
Well I did it.  I put in my resignation with no job, no prospects, really no idea what I’m going to do for a living.  I agreed to stay through the April 15th deadline, so unless they tell me to get my shit and get out (which they very well may do) I’ll have some time to figure out my next step...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Jan 12, 2011, 4:58 pm
"The idea that you can get everything you want in one person is destructive...And maybe when you accept that the number is closer to 50 or 60 or 70 percent, that's when you can start to make some progress in choosing the right person."~Michelle Williams
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Jan 11, 2011, 2:24 pm
Well I tried to fix it.  Or more accurately, extricate myself from a situation that wasn’t good for anybody.  I wanted to do it with grace and compassion.  Explain that it wasn’t good, that we both deserved better.  But I failed miserably.  I wasn’t graceful, I got frustrated and angry an...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Jan 6, 2011, 10:57 am
I’m not a very good talker.  I am a very good keep-it-to-yourselfer.  Maybe it was growing up isolated, maybe it’s my introverted nature…who knows.  But I’m not good at talking about myself.  I’m not good at opening up or venting or talking about things that are bothering me.  It’s ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Jan 4, 2011, 1:46 pm
I’m lost. I decided to quit my job early last year.  It’s been sapping my self-esteem and every ounce of energy I have for too long.  I can’t work hard enough, long enough.  Everything that happens is my fault.  It’s not just me of course, it’s the nature of this place. Everyone here ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Dec 17, 2010, 11:50 am
Do you ever have those days where the weight of the world is just too heavy to bare?  And there seems no safe place to hide from it, not even under your own covers, because the turmoil and sadness, the heaviness, is of your own making?  My world is feeling very heavy today.  I have not been livin...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Nov 23, 2010, 3:25 pm
He says he needs time to think.  Never a good sign.  The thing is I’m sad, but not for the loss of this young, fragile relationship.  I’ve suspected all along that we were not a good fit.  He is perfect on paper.  Smart and successful and affectionate.  But I’m just not getting there.  ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Nov 9, 2010, 5:19 pm
I haven’t been keeping up with my posts lately, largely due to time (or lack thereof) but if I’m completely honest mostly due to lack of motivation.  I fear the farther and farther away from me it gets the more likely it will fall into the category of one of those things I used to do.  Remembe...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Nov 2, 2010, 11:18 am
Life feels very beautiful and light and magical right now, but just when I start to forget, start to believe this was the way it always was, something reminds me how far I’ve come. Something I don’t mention much is that I’m actually divorced. I married my college sweetheart at 24 and was divor...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Oct 25, 2010, 2:42 pm
I don't believe you can stand for freedom for one group of people and deny it to others. ~Coretta Scott King   I love your strength, I love your bravery, I love your differences, I love you just the way you are.  I hope one day you don't have to be courageous just to be yourself.   via   h...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Oct 22, 2010, 12:46 pm
1. I am learning and growing and changing at warp speed these days. After years of living in fear and being safe I’m finally embracing life and love and all the scary shit out there with open arms. 2. I wish there were more hours in the day. I constantly have a million things I have to do and a mi...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Oct 20, 2010, 4:05 pm
Aside from being too busy to breath, I’ve been feeling very private lately. Very wanting to keep all my thoughts and experiences, joys and fears to myself. Wanting to take each day and tuck it under my pillow at night, to keep it safe to revisit on rainy days. I’m living in a perpetual state of ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 27, 2010, 2:06 pm
I had a dream last night and at first I thought I knew exactly what it was about.  I was driving a stick shift in a big parking lot and for some reason it kept stalling.  I drove a stick all through college, so I remember not being able to figure out why I couldn't drive it.  But I never felt an...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 20, 2010, 11:36 am
I haven’t posted any dating horror stories in a long time, mostly because I’ve been too busy but a large part due to the fact that I was tired of complaining about the. same. thing. I realized that while writing about it was helping me to sort through it, it was also keeping me stuck there in th...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 17, 2010, 3:15 pm
I just discovered the "Stats" tab on my blog page (cause I'm super high-tech and fast like that) and it strangely made me feel very exposed and vulnerable.  I mean, it's an open blog, some part of me wants to share these crazy thoughts I have.  But to see proof that someone is actually reading my...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 10, 2010, 7:53 pm
1. The strangest thing I've ever eaten is hmmm...I'm not a very adventurous eater since I'm a vegetarian.  Tofurkey? :)  2. I wouldn't be caught dead in a tubetop.  Or halter top.  Or really anything that I can't wear my industrial strength bra with. 3. When I am 75 I will I hope be telling sto...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 9, 2010, 8:09 pm
Loving Nicole right now for giving me something to distract myself from work. 1. What's something you miss? I miss breakfast at my grandma's house.  She was a wiz at making pancakes in the shape of whatever you requested.  My teddybears and hearts were easy, but you should have seen the dinosaurs ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 9, 2010, 2:13 pm
I'm needing to take a break from my Daily Inspiration posts this week.  With a work deadline looming, business details to take care of, and a promising new job prospect, I'm finding it hard to even find time to fix my hair in the mornings much less think of something inspiring to post.  I mean, I ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 7, 2010, 4:13 pm
When we remember we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained. ~Mark Twain via
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 6, 2010, 11:21 am
I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing. ~Agatha Christie via
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 5, 2010, 2:07 pm
"I have a lump.  It's really starting to hurt." "You have a what?  Where?  Have you gone to the doctor?" "No.  I was hoping to just wait so that by the time I went he'd just tell me I only have two months to live." I don't know what to say to that.  My initial reaction is one of disbelief. ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 3, 2010, 5:08 pm
All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson Isn't this a lovely way of reminding ourselves it's okay to make mistakes?  None of us know the answers or the outcomes, but it's in the living and trying and experimenting that we grow and learn and change ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 3, 2010, 11:11 am
1. If I didn't have to work anymore I would sew all my own clothes, walk my dog A LOT more than I do now, volunteer, train hard enough to qualify for the Boston Marathon, and spend more time with my friends and family. 2. My favorite thing about a vacation is being able to do whatever I want without...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 2, 2010, 4:17 pm
To me, there are three things we all should do every day. We should do this every day of our lives. Number one is laugh. You should laugh every day. Number two is think. You should spend some time in thought. And number three is, you should have your emotions moved to tears, could be happiness or jo...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 2, 2010, 3:21 pm
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what kind of person I am and what kind of person I want to be. I’ve spent so much of my life working towards some career, some goal, some achievement - that I began to define myself by those things. Who am I? I’m a CPA. I’m a business owner. I’m a mara...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Sep 1, 2010, 2:30 pm
Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it. ~Groucho Marx I've been having a hard time ...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Aug 31, 2010, 6:46 pm
Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. ~Lao Tzu Were truer words ever spoken? via
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Aug 30, 2010, 3:55 pm
You can't stay in your corner of the Forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes. ~Winnie the Pooh I think the world would be a better place if we all lived like Pooh and Piglet.
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Aug 27, 2010, 3:15 pm
Maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets. ~Arthur Miller via
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Aug 27, 2010, 2:32 pm
1. The most adventurous thing I've ever done is starting my own business. In a bad economy. Some may say that’s stupid, but I like to think it’s adventurous. :) 2. If I were a pair of shoes I would be my silver star Converse. Classic and lowkey with just the slightest bit of quirk. 3. My preferr...
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Aug 26, 2010, 5:21 pm
The minute I heard my first love story I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They are in each other all along. ~Rumi Lovely.
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Melissa K. posted an article on Now I Become Myself - Aug 25, 2010, 2:50 pm
The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed. ~Carl Jung Something to remember - you have an affect on every single person you meet.  Do you want it to be positive or negative?
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