Serial Insomniac

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Until It Sleeps

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Nov 19, 2009, 1:03 pm
The iPod has been acting as a mindreader again. I’m not in the habit of doing this as this blog is mine; my life, in my words. However, sometimes others just say it (whatever ‘it’ ...
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Mad versus Bad, Stockholm Syndrome and Defending HIM

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Nov 18, 2009, 6:41 pm
The phenomenon of Stockholm Syndrome has been bandied about a lot in the media recently, in the wake of the Jaycee Lee Dugard abduction and, to a lesser extent, in discussion of the Fritzl case (thoug...
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The Questions I Never Wanted to Face – C: Week 30

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Nov 16, 2009, 5:53 pm
I’ve been avoiding writing this entry, in part due to a continuing malaise with being arsed to do anything, never mind soul-searching and expunging myself across the internet. But it’s no...
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Remonstrations with C – Week 29

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Nov 11, 2009, 3:32 pm
I was absolutely dreading seeing C last week, after the disaster of the previous week.  Although the rawness of my hurt and anger had abated somewhat, I still felt fucked over and undermined, and obv...
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The Malice of the Voices of 'They'

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Nov 10, 2009, 4:57 pm
Owing to the pain of this - - I’ve been somewhat in absentia from the blogosphere recently.  Was this gash – which is actually worse than the above suggests, being as it was nearly a rem...
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An Open Letter to My Therapist – C: Week 28

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Oct 29, 2009, 1:48 pm
Dear C Previous meetings, specifically that of today (Thursday 29 October), refer.  I should like to enquire as to what you feel that the mandate of our work together is.  It has been my long-held ...
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The Beauty of Blood

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Oct 28, 2009, 4:11 pm
I have been incredibly good recently and haven’t self-harmed for about a fortnight. That’s good going for me since May. That does not mean it isn’t on my mind, though. I think ab...
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What I Want in Therapy is Exactly What I Can't Have – C: Week 27

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Oct 22, 2009, 2:17 pm
Today’s session with C was one of the oddest I’ve had.  It’s kind of hard to articulate exactly why.  I was experiencing acute senses of depersonalisation and derealisation, for no...
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Signs of Childhood Sexual Abuse

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Oct 21, 2009, 9:45 am
I found this insightful (if concise) article via Twitter today. I was utterly astounded by how much of it describes my behaviour after my uncle raped me when I was about 10. I don’t really fan...
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I've Joined the Ranks of the Unemployed

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Oct 20, 2009, 7:08 pm
As you know, I was at yet another Occupational Health assessment about three weeks ago.  I haven’t bothered to detail it as I knew it would feed into this inevitable post. It was a different d...
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An Impasse – C: Week 26

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Oct 15, 2009, 4:44 pm
It’s funny how really small things in therapy catch your attention sometimes. Today, he called me by my name at one point, which he never does except to call me in from the waiting room. I als...
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Reflecting on Being a Psychotic Bitch

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Oct 14, 2009, 5:45 pm
I am sure that one does not require the IQ of Einstein or his counterparts to work out, from the last post, that bleakness, futility and utter self-disgust presently permeate my existence. There were...
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Hate

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Oct 10, 2009, 7:19 am
How can any one individual be so absolutely and completely loathsome?  How can I have the audacity to even breathe given my absolute hideousness? I am a twisted, vile, appalling, grotesque and despi...
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I Hate the Therapeutic Relationship – C: Week 25

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Oct 8, 2009, 7:38 pm
I don’t hate this bizarre relationship because I hate C – quite the opposite today, as it happens, but I’ll get to that later.  What I hate is the power this one individual can have...
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Hearing The Voice (and Other Psychoses)

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Sep 30, 2009, 7:27 pm
I’ve mentioned the voice quite a bit lately, but I haven’t really gone into any detail about it.  Largely, that’s because there’s not really a great deal about him to discuss....
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What's Annoying Me Today, and Ruminations on Seeing the Psychiatrist

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Sep 29, 2009, 11:43 am
Well, fuck me, but didn’t the VCB actually manage to bother her arse seeing me today.  Will wonders ever cease?! I took my Mum with me to the horrible, dilapidated, thoroughly depressing place...
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On Being on Holiday – Is this Normality?

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Sep 28, 2009, 12:13 pm
Of course, almost by definition, being on holiday is not normality.  It is a break from it, a break from the humdrum everyday mundanity that is the rat-race in which most of us here in the West have ...
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Password to Previous Post

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Sep 26, 2009, 9:06 am
If you want to read the last post, please contact me via Twitter or, if you have my address, via email.  If you prefer, leave a comment here – comments come with your email address so I can ema...
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Protected: Things are Bad

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Sep 26, 2009, 9:00 am
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Three Days of Professional Madness, Genital Vinegar and C: Week 24

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Sep 24, 2009, 7:17 am
As you know, I’ve been on holiday, and as you also know, I promised I would go into more detail about the three mental health appointments I had in the days that preceded my departure. I had st...
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How to be a Serial Insomniac: Lesson One

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Sep 12, 2009, 10:30 am
Come to Turkey, and drink some of this: I was totally manic yesterday, and no doubt this Turkish coffee will induce more of the same, but it’s just so good. A asked me at the airport yesterday...
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One More for the Road…

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Sep 10, 2009, 4:24 pm
I’m still avoiding packing, and it’s almost 10.30pm.  Below is the latest time-waster. This is an analysis of some of the language I’ve used on the blog.  It’s only of recen...
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SI on Tour!

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Sep 10, 2009, 3:33 pm
Merhaba arkadaş, Wow-ee, w00t, I’m a rockstar on tour.  Or not. I’m going on holiday tomorrow.  There is an inherent irony in heading to a mainly Islamic country (Türkiye Cumhuriyet...
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Today's Psychiatric Appointment

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Sep 8, 2009, 7:11 am
Saw a new Senior House Officer, Dr A, who listened to how things had been and asked me to explain various specifics. After 20 minutes, she summarised things – missing a lot of points in my view...
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In Session and Spaced Out – C: Week 23

Serial Insomniac posted an article on - Sep 4, 2009, 12:38 pm
C didn’t believe me when I told him this, but prior to Thursday’s session, I had had no more than about five hours’ sleep in the preceding three weeks. I believe that for a while I&...
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About Me

20-something female from Northern Ireland blogging on the complexities of living life with chronic severe depression, social anxiety, bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder (and, of course, the resulting insomnia!). I also chronicle my experiences of weekly psychotherapy and mental health services on the NHS in general.

My blog might be disturbing reading for some, but if you're interested in any of these illness, mental health or the psychotherapeutic process and relationship, check it out at http://serialinsomniac.wordpress.com

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