suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Jan 25, 2012, 10:32 pm
sometimes i wish saying goodbye is easy. although i know that's just wishful thinking. so many things right inside of me, and i just don't feel like blurting it out. no one to tell to, and the people i talk to just gives me the most generic answer ever. in the end, i face it alone. i try not to let ...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Nov 24, 2011, 7:03 am
at the end of the day, it all boils down to what you want. what you really want. deep inside of you. no one can tell you what's right what's wrong. you make the judgement. right or wrong, it's yours to take. the responsibility. the good. the bad. everything. and i still don't know what is it exactly...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Nov 23, 2011, 8:32 am
stuck in a crossroad. unsure which road to take. still pondering. still thinking. i still haven't made up my mine. am so worried that the choice i made is just wrong.
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Nov 15, 2011, 11:06 pm
sometimes we wonder is that the right decision we have made. sometimes we tell ourselves that it IS the right decision. sometimes we tell ourselves even if it isn't the right decision, you have made it, so be it. live with it. and sometimes, there's this sharp feeling inside of you telling you "Hone...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Nov 13, 2011, 11:25 pm
ever since 4th Nov, my heart gets lighter and lighter. i don't even feel like touching anything anymore, i just want to let it rot, let it die on it's own. i just don't freaking care. like i have always said, don't care, don't bother, not my problem. because i have already let go and it's time for o...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Oct 9, 2011, 11:54 pm
i don't work for passion anymore. i don't work for money anymore. i work, just because everyone wants me to work. what the hell am i working for?
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suewin posted an article on Beauty Up My Life - Aug 18, 2011, 9:28 pm
This NOPS Green Clay Pore Mask is currently my favourite clay mask at the moment. It spreads well and doesn't have any icky scent, possibly a very light clay-ish smell but not that my nose can detect anything. It also doesn't dry out my skin nor makes it feel super tight after washing it off, it...
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suewin posted an article on Beauty Up My Life - Aug 17, 2011, 8:50 pm
Have been using this for a while and already close to finish, I thought I'd report my thoughts on this. I have always been a fan of Biore UV Perfect Face Milk and don't really have any intentions of changing brands or the product itself, but as my skin gets drier as I age, I find that at times eve...
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suewin posted an article on Beauty Up My Life - Aug 15, 2011, 9:55 pm
A post inspired from Karen of Makeup and Beauty Blog. Had always like this shade of greenish blue and when Karen blogged about it, I knew I had to get it and luckily for me, Topshop makeup is pretty easy to get. :D Is it a Tiffany sort of blue? No idea, because poor little me don't own anything fr...
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suewin posted an article on Beauty Up My Life - Jul 24, 2011, 3:56 am
...when there's a good cup of tea just for that quiet afternoon...or......when you scored a cheerful looking vintage scarf for an absolutely low price...or......when you bring home a Tiffany Blue lookalike nail polish...or......when you have a new gadget to keep you busy...
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suewin posted an article on Beauty Up My Life - Jul 18, 2011, 10:25 pm
Currently still mourning over my broken OPI Come To Poppy nail polish.Doesn't help either when work's really busy and with a cough/ flu looming.Such a sad sad time.
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Jul 7, 2011, 5:38 am
black is white. white is black. grey is black and white. live in a grey zone. till the end of time.
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suewin posted an article on Beauty Up My Life - Jul 5, 2011, 3:00 am
Anna Sui's summer collection is aptly named as 2011 Beach Collection, and it's all about the beach and being a glittering mermaid. Summer's all about cooling sea breeze and beach, beach and more beach! Unless you decide to travel somewhere cold and snowy to escape the summer heat. I wear slippers al...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Jun 30, 2011, 2:56 am
it's a circle i'll never be able to step into, no matter how much i want to. i guess, it's a circle that's not meant for everyone. not for me. i belong to that half circle, so incomplete.
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suewin posted an article on Beauty Up My Life - Jun 29, 2011, 4:30 am
I was impressed with the Vichy Normaderm Refine Total Pore Resurfacing  Essence which I had reviewed earlier, that when they offer me the chance to try out Normaderm Tri-Activ Anti- Imperfection Hydrating Care, I said yes immediately! Reason being I really like what Vichy is doing for my skin, ev...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Jun 27, 2011, 10:42 pm
when all that we were told to believe were lies, wouldn't it also be a lie too that the lies were lies? what's to believe now?
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suewin posted an article on Beauty Up My Life - Jun 24, 2011, 4:45 am
Dear Etude House Happy Teatime Peach Tea Cleansing Foam, When I just got to know you, my first impression was "Why is your name is such a mouthful?" As the day goes by and we got to know each other better, we both agreed to just call you Peach Tea, since this is my favourite drink for hot humid days...
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suewin posted an article on Beauty Up My Life - Jun 21, 2011, 8:41 pm
If you love purple nail polish, then I have 2 recommendations for you. :D Both of these are awesome nail colours for summer, heck, I think it's beautiful colours that can be worn anytime, anywhere! I had them on my toes for 2 weeks each, and received mighty a lot of compliments (that's because I wea...
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suewin posted an article on Beauty Up My Life - Jun 14, 2011, 10:02 pm
I've got oily skin, so I like my cleansers to give my skin a fresh, clean feel. Of course, not overly fresh till my skin is dry and flaky ;) Over the years of using different cleansers from various brands, I have come to love foamy bubbly cleansers that smells good and cleanses my face well. How doe...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Jun 6, 2011, 1:33 am
nothing to say about may, except that it flew by. and june, heck, let's talk about it when june ends k? jeez, when's the next holiday?
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Apr 14, 2011, 1:33 am
sometimes we try not to be bothered with people's perception, but more often than not, we bother with it too much than what we can handle. and thus we get heartbroken. we get sad. we get furious. we get angry. truth is, you'll never please everyone around you. and you dig you own grave by knowing to...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Feb 4, 2011, 1:42 pm
As usual, I whine about Chinese New Year. Never a fan of family gatherings, and the chats that comes along with it. It's not my style and I dislike entertaining people, if I don't feel like it. Whether it's family or not. But most of the time, I had to. Just because I want to please my dad. Afterall...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Jan 31, 2011, 4:15 am
just want to say Happy Chinese New Year before I go missing again. yeah whatever. i'm just glad to have a few days off and can be bloody sure no idiots will come a-calling. and again. i really don't fancy Chinese New Year despite being a Chinese myself. just not into it :) don't bash me because that...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Dec 23, 2010, 8:39 am
maybe it's christmas, i'm feeling... just a tad bitter. maybe a tad bitter is an understatement. because, i think i am bitter. about everything that's happening. i don't think i am blaming anyone or anything, neither i blame myself, it's so not justifiable to blame myself because i did try to make t...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Nov 26, 2010, 2:25 am
fridays are actually disastrous. super duper disastrous. i guess, you need to get rid of the bad before you can taste the sweet sweet scent of a lazy weekend. hm. i guess.
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Nov 24, 2010, 8:57 pm
i know i have people who cares about me. and love me for who i am. despite how ugly/idiotic/horrible i am. thank you. you know, i love you too. though you may never know about it until the day you/ me die. tee hee.
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Nov 24, 2010, 5:05 am
drained. to the core. not sure what am i feeling. maybe just numbness. it saddens me when i have put in my best effort, i get shit all the time. and others who doesn't even deserve what they have, they get everything. i know life's not fair. i know, i don't need you to tell me twice. but really, si...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Nov 8, 2010, 9:36 pm
currently sleep deprived. i can barely open my eyes. weekend doing labour work has taken it's toll on me. not complaining. just saying it out loud. afterall, it's a place i can call my own, though it isn't entirely mine to be exact. am zombified. therefore i am rambling. pray everything ends soon!
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Nov 4, 2010, 5:41 am
i am so regaining all my zen this month. my BIG month. don't care what you think. but this month, i am the princess. i am the queen. love me or hate me. i don't care.
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Oct 15, 2010, 1:59 am
i need to regain my calmness. my zen. so i don't strangle myself to death just because of work. october has been sucky, i had like mad effing issues everyday to deal with. 2 months of zen, gone. Where has it gone to? i need it back, like desperately. i don't want to lose my temper, or lose self cont...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Oct 1, 2010, 1:10 pm
i think i am one lucky girl. though i know, in real life, i won't admit it because i am just too proud to say so. so i am a snob, i am proud, but i think i am still am an okay person. i am lucky, despite being heavily flawed, i have friends. i know, not many, but i think it's enough to last me a lif...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Sep 13, 2010, 11:06 pm
crappy wet morning. i really wish i could sleep in. and oh god, i don't know why am i so demotivated to work. no motivation at all. most probably i slept too much. OR i had too much holidays. but wait, i love holidays. so there ain't anything as too much of it? oh well, i never love work anyway.
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Sep 9, 2010, 4:18 am
learning to give up at the right time, instead of pushing myself further at the wrong time. i feel so much at ease right now. life isn't that hard when you learn to let go. but only if you do it at the right moment. time to kick back and relax.
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Aug 17, 2010, 11:44 pm
here comes another email from you. this and that. honestly i just want to laugh at it, and say no more. because it is useless doing so. i will just continue doing what i do, and when time is right, it will be me bidding you goodbye. i don't really know why am i staying, maybe because i hate the chan...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Aug 11, 2010, 3:09 am
i feel used. i feel cheated. i feel humiliated. i feel anger. i feel rage. i feel like just killing you. p/s: if i feel like it, i might update what actually happen.
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Aug 2, 2010, 2:39 am
i actually miss my pariahs. i really love you two. can we work together someday again? and ensure juniors won't get bully? please, pretty please?
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Aug 2, 2010, 2:30 am
all i want now is be strong. live through the toughest day and still be able to smile. i know i got people around me who cares. even though it's just a tiny bit. i try not to lose hope and faith and just go on being strong. i can cry. i can laugh. i can get angry. i can get sad. and at least by that...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Jun 19, 2010, 12:17 pm
so it was ahpa's day. treated him to a simple thai meal. i think he enjoys it. yet i think he feels a little weird and sad. his girls are all grown up. working. living on their own. they can now pay for themselves. don't need daddy as much as before. even the past few weeks, when i didn't go home, ...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Jun 7, 2010, 12:08 pm
i'm emo. despite my WMP is playing upbeat music, loud and clear, but heck, i don't feel any of it's positivity flowing into me. i just want some soft music. music that makes you feel like crying. okay. actually i want to cry. but god damn tears so stubborn, it won't come out. maybe i need to use som...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Jun 6, 2010, 11:13 am
i suddenly feel so envious, for those who have their dad around with them. i suddenly rediscover my love for yui's voice. i suddenly notice one could dance but not sing, but the other could sing/perform but can't dance, and yeah, both have killer smiles that melts me in an instant. i suddenly notice...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - May 25, 2010, 11:43 am
super pissed at the moment. even oppa's voice can't cheer me up nor cool me down. in fact news about him sick and needing surgery is making things even worse. UGH. in an effing mad rage right now. so damn biased. so damn unfair to me. pissed at myself for being an idiot. pissed at myself for not d...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - May 21, 2010, 2:00 pm
1.30am. so quiet. the world is sleeping, perhaps part of it aren't. well, i'm one of those, who aren't lying on the bed, dreaming of wonderful things or worst still, getting nightmares. it is at time like this, i like to listen to a really soft song, doesn't matter if i keep that song in a loop, but...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - May 17, 2010, 1:08 am
feel so much better, cleaning up the blog. too much junk, lying around. hated the background, though i love it so much before. maybe i grew out of it, and decided, minimalistic design, is still my best friend. i clean away all the unwanted stuff, went back to the most basic stuff i ever needed. and...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - May 11, 2010, 10:00 am
as i grow older, i think i become more critical. more abusive. more stubborn. more... negative. i hardly see that happy twinkle in my eye, without that dreadful sign of weariness. i hardly feel genuinely happy anymore, without dreading the next bad thing to come. it's a funny feeling i am feeling ri...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - May 4, 2010, 1:42 am
sometimes i just don't know what i did to deserve all this crap. was i that bad as a human to deserve this? how come idiots get better life than me? how come those who never ever work hard gets better life than me? why? why? why? why is it so unfair? i do my best, push my hardest and yet you want mo...
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Mar 25, 2010, 10:09 am
at night. i sit down. relax. think. clear my mind. tell myself it'll be another day. all i need to do is get through it. once 6pm comes. my ordeal is gone. cinderella yes? i think. in a way. cinderella lives happily ever after (or so the story says) wonder if mine would be the same?
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Mar 23, 2010, 5:14 am
i try to free my mind from anger. i try to make my mind feel free. i try to feel at ease. try to feel happy. try to put a smile on my face. while i manage the day away. i try very hard. i do try. please don't make me give up. please don't.
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Mar 14, 2010, 9:55 pm
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Mar 6, 2010, 12:48 am
i think i need to find a balance between life and work. more often that not, i feel unhappy about work. it isn't because work isn't treating me well, it's because i am being stubborn and can't let go. certain things i don't really need to get mad or angry, it's such a small matter but i made it BIG....
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suewin posted an article on The Real & The Dreamy - Mar 6, 2010, 12:48 am
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